We are soldiers; its behind all of our eyes.  It is a frustrating position to hold because
we are the chosen ones, chosen to fight injustice, chosen honorably because we
are strong enough to fight, but with that our eyes are opened and forever
ingrained in our hearts is the injustice that we see.  The heaviness of the honor comes from the
obligation to fight in the battle.  We
are soldiers chosen to fight in this battle for justice and truth; we did not
choose this, but by the King we
have been chosen to represent Him and we cannot reject the call.  How have we gotten into this mess?  It is in the honor that we have been given
the eyes to see the injustice of the church through living it, being right in
the middle of it for a long enough period of time to see its destruction.  We could not simply dip our toes into the
water; we had to dive into this sea of religion to see its realness and to
conquer our fear and blindness of it.  We
are being  trained:  to know it, to recognize it and to fight it.  But with that comes the heavy exhaustion and
the defeat that reminds us that it is not by our own efforts that we can fight
this, we are not the heroes, we are just soldiers.  Without Him, we are dead, we are blinded, and
we are lost.  Lord could I not have
simply lived contently in my ignorance; I never asked to fight, I only wanted
peace.  But we have been chosen and
called to fight, not by words but by actions, we have been called not to simply
bring the truth but to believe it and live it; for if we speak it, shouldn't
that be an indication of our beliefs and if we truly believe it, does it not
affect our ways of life?  For what is
religion if not a way of life?  It is a
bunch of empty words and from those empty words comes lies and from those lies,
people fall away from the truth.  Where
have we gone wrong?  Religion, it is
killing the world, it is destroying the name of Jesus.  How do I deal with seeing Jesus crying
because His own body is killing him?   What do we do, how do we fight this?  We live by truth and freedom as we have been
called.  This is our battle.

My teamate Jenessa did a really awesome job elaborating on this post, you should check it out at jenessaorcherton.myadventures.org (We Can Look You in the Eye and Say We Are Not Afraidto Die)